Letting Go

As I inventory my life in 2023, I noticed overall it was a happy year. I had some hard moments, with the twins moving out of the house leaving me an empty nester and instead of working more I ended up working less, which was uncomfortable for me. Many times this past year I’ve had to acknowledge moments of feeling lonely and moments of joy for being alone. Nothing like living alone for the first time in 24 years to highlight the joys and pitfalls of a solitary life. 

I find it easier and simpler to remain aligned with who I truly am when alone. I surrender to the silence and listen to my soul. In the silence I find alignment with my truest destiny. I am never really alone. In the last year I joined two different networking groups. I participated in a monthly breathwork ceremony and am making connections with those people. I made connections with other professionals in England and around the US. I started out the year with an idea to get certified as a tantra practitioner, and did indeed do that (with a different company than I had previously planned for). I desired to make significant progress in marketing, and I did, with the help of my wonderful assistant (not by hiring an overpaid company; they just took my money). I had several desires manifest differently than I had planned. Looking at my vision board for 2023, I see that I made legitimate progress on all of my goals, growth points, desires; but nearly none of them transpired in the manner I visioned them to. This is what it means to have the desire and then let go of the outcome and the journey. We don’t need to know how something is going to come to us. We just need to believe it will be good for us. 

I have noticed when I have a fleeting desire, which holds little to no emotional influx, simply speaking the desire outloud, often laughing at such desire, then allowing it to leave my thoughts, produces that very desire. Example: about 3 weeks ago I was shopping online for a tree and came across a female bodice with an upside down fern tree as a skirt. It was so unique and awesome looking. I loved it instantly. I decided I wanted one, but I thought I would wait until next year to get it, as I was not in the mood to decorate. Then two weeks ago Karisma (my oldest) came by the house on Saturday. We both missed our shopping trips, so I suggested we go to At Home and look at Christmas decoration, trees, because I needed to get a tree up for the holiday. Walking into the store, there it was, this beautiful gold and cream white female bodice tree, with angel wings attached. I instantly loved it and felt joy, and I could really vision it in my house with our favorite ornaments affixed to it. So after several minutes of debate and looking at other trees, Karisma encouraged me to get the unique tree, “It’s you mom. I like it and you love it, so you should get it”. Filled with pleasure and joy I brought it home, got it put together and decorated before the night was over. A matter of fact the whole house was decorated before the night was over, and it only took a little inspiration from this very feminine tree. 

When we allow ourselves to be in our pleasure we allow for our desires to manifest. This was a small desire, but really any desire can be small. If you allow yourself to be authentic, and listen to your calling you will manifest the very best of life. 

Another example, three months ago I proclaimed that I was going to allow people to schedule classes as private bookings, and since publishing it to my website I’ve had three bookings. The people kept asking to take the classes in private, so I gave them what they wanted. My desire was to teach the class material more often. I had to surrender to doing it in a different manner than what I designed previously. 

When I stop fighting against insurance all together, I get more clients. 

When I surrender to not knowing exactly how something is going to manifest, but have a knowing that if it is alignment with who I am, and my destiny then my desire is met in the best possible way. 

Learn to let go as the navigator of the journey and the specific outcome, so desires can manifest.